August 17

I am leaving for Italy!!!!! I won't be back until the end of August so don't think I died or anything.

I can't wait to get away from it all and go back to school. One more day of this reality.
Ciao

August 16

I like to hear the rain hitting the rooftop.

August 15

I just spent an amazing weekend with the best and now I have a million things to do in the next 72 hours. But I've realized there's only one thing I really want to be doing.

August 11

August 9

August 8

someone send a runner through the weather that I'm under for the feeling that I lost today

August 7

The guy at the car place told my Dad that I was a lovely girl. When I bring my Dad's car in, all I do is sit there and wait for it to be done while I read my book about a meth addict. Then I smile and nod and say yes and ok when the man tries to explain to me the problems even though I have no idea what he is talking about. Then I leave. I guess that's what lovely is.

August 6

I moved most of my stuff into my apartment yesterday, pretty exciting to say the least. My Dad even let my drive the u-haul truck. I'm still not quite sure why he entrusted me with that responsibility.

I don't know why I sometimes waste my time on people I don't care about. It drains my happiness and energy and I hate myself for doing it, but I always seem to slip up every once in a while. And it's hard to forget. I want to forget and I think I should forget. But then another part of me says don't forget because I can't think that it is amazing and perfect when it might not be. It's sad. I used to think it was. I crave those days when I had those thoughts in my mind. Though I always believe people can redeem themselves if they want to. Everyone is fully capable of doing that. But it's their choice. I just sit here and watch.

August 4

I can't wait to get back to UMass. I need a change in scenery. 2011 is almost over. I've been doing this blog for over 7 months now and only have 5 left. This year has flown by. It feels like I just started doing this, but that's how life always feels. Although this year is more then half way over, I still feel like there is a lot to come once I get back to school. It should be interesting to see how everything plays out.

Have you ever really thought about how insignificant a year is in comparison to your entire life? A year or two is really only a small piece of your entire self. But even though it is such a tiny piece, so much can happen in that insignificant piece of time, which I guess in turn makes it significant. Or maybe a year is really only significant when we are young because our lives change at a rapid pace. Whereas when we are old, 10 years can feel like one year of our younger lives. When I look back on this time in my life, will all these events that happened in such a short amount of time and all the people that I brought into my life to love and cherish really mean something to me or will I just forget it all?

The moments and the people who have truly changed my life, I don't think I could ever forget.

we all get a little bit older in this day and age, but we deal with it

August 2

The Death Cab For Cutie concert was incredible. They played almost everything I wanted them to. You know a band is truly talented if they sound better live then they do on their albums. After I left Jamie, I was driving home from Boston by myself listening to The National, and everything was beautiful.

I wish we could open our eyes to see in all directions at the same time, oh what a beautiful view if you were never aware of what was around you

August 1

Death Cab For Cutie concert tonight. So excited.