April 1

"Becca, I want to be like you when I grow up." This is what Meghan said to me today at rehearsal for Sleeping Beauty and Firebird. Meghan is about five or six years older then me so when she said this I was puzzled. She went on to say how beautiful I look on stage and how I make dancing look effortless. I almost don't believe it when she says this because I have no confidence in myself and what I do. Coming from her, it is a huge compliment and means more to me then I think she knows. One of my loyal followers on this blog, Amy (here's your shout out Amy haha), gives me little compliments all the time as well. Whether it's that my costume goes well with my eyes or that I did an amazing job on a step in class, she always makes me smile. Maybe one day I will believe what people say to me. Maybe I will believe it when they tell me I'm beautiful and that when I dance it's enjoyable to watch. I try so hard for everything I do so it means something when someone notices; like I'm actually doing something right for once and I'm succeeding at something that I have worked for my entire life. I try and dance every performance like it's my last because at this point in my life, it very well might be, and that scares me more then anything.