October 13

I wonder if she feels as I do.

I need to learn not to waste my thoughts or lose my contentment over these people that drive me crazy because they don't matter in the slightest. But for some reason they always creep into my life and I despise it because it almost makes me rethink things...almost. But it shouldn't because like I said, they don't matter. I don't want to have to deal with all that and I shouldn't have to, considering what I have been through. It's not worth it. And I always wonder whether I can be free from it all.

I fear I'm dying from complications, complications due to things that I've left undone